I think I love you better now .
Assalamualaikum .
I don't know what to say . Life is getting hard . And when I thought it couldn't get any worst . It just did . More and more people are slipping away . I don't know what to do anymore . It seems so hopeless .
When everytime someone's trying to get along with me . There're going to be some bitch trying to push them away from me . Like dafuq ? Aren't they satisfied seeing me miserable like this ? Isn't this just enough ?
Like everything I did , is so wrong . Nothing's right . Sick of this shit . Sick of pretending that everything is fine , when it's not . Sick of these fake smile .
I wish I could tell someone about my problem . About the truth behind those lies I told people . But who ?
The moment I thought someone really cares bout me . Then they turn around and trying to avoid me . Know why ? Because , like I said , some bitch push them away from me , spreading rumors , talking behind my back . This is just fucking bullshit .
Yeah , so you can see this unexpected part of me . I'm just so sick of this .
If they really cares bout me , they won't go and believe the rumors . They'll just ignore all those stupid bullshits .
Yeah , you win . I'm miserable , happy ? I'm fucked up . My life is totally messed up . Chaos . Stress .
I don't think I could make it for PMR this year . It seems impossible to gain 9A's . I lost hope . Thanks to you . Yeah , victory is yours . You can take everything . I gave up . Congratulations .
