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Assalamualaikum
You know that feeling . When you kept telling yourself that everything's going to be fine . That those bullshits would just end . But then it just getting worst . It's really indescribable . Thought all those effort could just mean something , could make me stronger . But I was wrong
Done trying . Done of everything
I always knew that this day would come . People leave . They just did . It happens all the time . No matter how much you try to make them stay , it's not enough . It never will be . No one cares , get used to it
Don't know if I could make this through . PMR ? Just another nightmare .
Why is everything I do , wrong ?
My life is in pieces all the time . And they just keep breaking , and as soon as I fix one , another one goes down . All the hurt , it feels like it's trying to explode out of me .
I wanted to go back to being a child . I want to be in KL back . I want to spend time with my childhood friends . Where everything is perfect , just perfect .
Just as I thought , whenever I tell people my secret , they would just leave . I know , I'm weird , my life is fucked up . I'm sorry . I never wanted this life . I'm useless and crap . I fucked up at everything . Maybe I was never meant to be love .
You know , you don't really have to come to somebody's life , make them think you care , and then just check out .
Thanks though for making me believing again . Well , maybe not for long . But you did . Now you're gone like those people who always said they won't . But it's okay . I'm used to it .
